Days like today make me wonder why God has placed me in the ministry. Why did He have me marry a pastor? why? I don't feel fit to be a pastor's wife. I'm not a leader, I don't like being the "example" that people look at. ughhhh it's just so frusterating when you are dealing with people. Basically two ladies of our church (they're sisters) took something things that were said by myself and some other ladies wrongly. They left upset and feeling judged, which if you know me, I don't judge anyone for anything. But they were so upset that they couldn't or wouldn't hear me out. Then of course I felt hurt, and sad that they thought I was judging them. I went home crying and telling dh about what took place. We prayed together and I had to leave in God's hands. I told dh that maybe he could call them and ask to meet together. Well the older sister called back and her and dh had a good long talk. So I think things are better, I will talk to them tomorrow night.
I love these two ladies dearly and I guess it hurt me to think that they would think I was the type of person to judge someone. It's all very stupid and frusterating. But things like this make me wonder why God has me in the ministry. I know that this is petty, and will all blow over with time. But I hate making myself vulenerable to people.
3 comments:
A Pastor's family is a blessing to SO many people...you are a blessing. And I find even when I am SO hurt that God is still there with me. You're a pastor's wife because, God knew that you were the perfect person for the job because, that was His plan and His plans are perfect.
--Megs (the mindless blog wanderer and Pastor's daughter)
I just saw this post. Don't worry sis. These things happen. You do your best. Sometimes you make mistakes, but always you need to learn from them. Love you.
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