C-mom's Blog Challenge #3

What is a fear you have had to face in the past? And how did you over come that fear?

This was a hard challenge for me. But I think that the fear I had in the past was failing as a Pastor's Wife. In college I didn't want to even get married, let alone to a Pastor. I always thought that I would ruin his ministry. I was wild and not your typical "Baptist" girl. The college I went to was a very strict college and I did not agree with a lot of thier rules or standards. My freshman year, second semester, I dated my husband. Actually we only had 2-3 dates, and then I broke it off. He was so well put together, he knew what God had called him to do, he was more serious and responsible and I just did not want that. But over the next year or two, I watched him and while watching him, I fell in love with him. I was tired of dating around. A few different things had happened over the summer and I came to my knees and told God whatever He wanted, I wanted. The following year when I went back to school I started dating my husband again. But this time I knew I was going to marry him and be a PW. I was still so nervous about this. I knew and know that I have so much to work on. I'm not a Proverbs 31 woman. I'm not a meek and quiet spirit. I'm not a spiritual Giant. It has now been 5 years since being in the ministry. And I have learned that God can use anybody for His purpose. No matter how flawed, or how rough. I'm still learning how to be a better leader and a better PW. But I am no longer afraid that I will be the down fall of my dh's ministry. I believe that he and I make a great team, and this is why God chose us for each other. I think when you submit yourself to God and simply let Him do the work through you, there isn't anything impossible or to big for you to handle.

This challenge reminds me of Moses, and how scared he was to face Pharoh, yet with God's strength and knowing that God was behind him, he was able to face his fears and do something mighty for God...