Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Why? What? Who? ME???

So i've been somewhat stressed lately. Maybe more overwhelmed. I just feel like I'm failing in so many area's. I won't go into details but the past couple of days I have felt like crying, but I choose not to. Maybe stressed or overwhelmed isn't the right word. Maybe discouraged. I don't know, I'm just in a funk and I'm not used to it.
I guess there are some things that you just have no control over and you have to learn to let go and trust God. It's hard though, isn't it? I mean. When all you see is what is in front of you or around you, you become effected by it. so I'm gonna choose to close my eyes, plug my ears and yell "lalalalalalalalal" at the top of my lungs and maybe trusting will come easier.

Christmas is coming up, and it's coming up fast! I need to get out my Christmas Cards (which I haven't received in the mail yet) and I need to send out my Christmas gifts to family, along with the Morales Family birthday gifts!(uhhhh... Sorry) but anyhow. It'll happen eventually.

2 comments:

TrulyBlessed said...

Yeah, those funks are hard to get out of sometimes. I know how you feel. I have cried so much in the last couple of days then I have the whole year I think! Today I cried because I had too much stuff in our room and I felt unsettled! I know, mine are just emotions... but it felt so much better to cry and get it out and then fall asleep. Even if it is for five minutes... just let it out and yes, trust God...

Sherry said...

Awww...Esther...sorry you're feeling like that. Can I help? I think we need a sister get away. Wouldn't that be awesome? Ah, yes. That would be cool. No worries, sis.