Life is so strange sometimes....

Do you ever feel like life is just an odd dream. One second you are walking through this wonderful world, where everything is bright and happy. Life is sweet and couldn't get any better, then all of a sudden the world around you changes and you are now walking through dark halls, your surroundings are unfamiliar and strange. Immediately your security and all that you know and love disappear. Not only are you scared to death and unsure of every step you take but you feel it on the inside. You feel lost.... Then again your world changes.... almost like you're stuck in limbo. Not a happy place but not completely scarey either. You simply are existing. Wondering here and there. And the feeling that fills your soul is numbness, you almost wish there was pain or sadness just so you can feel, yet nothing comes. I sometimes feel that way. Like my life is a dream that changes from one scene to the next, at least lately that's how it seems. But you know what, I have relized that because I have God, I can CHOOSE to wake up at any time. I can CHOOSE to change the scenery. I may not be able to change the events that have taken place around me, but I can change my attitude. I can change the way I SEE things. And that is what I am doing. I am changing ME. I am changing the way I look at things. But I can't do this on my own. God is my source. He is my strength, my hope. Because I know that He is in control, because I know that He has our best intrests in mind. He is my Heavenly Father and He is holding my hand.