I Am a Blank Canvas

(obviously this is just a joke)

I am a blank canvas waiting to be doodled on.... I love art. I love looking at drawings and doodles whether it is graffiti or oil paintings, sketches, mixed media... I just like pictures :) Since I was a teenager I always wanted a tattoo. Thankfully I never received one as a teenager because I know I would have gotten something dumb, or maybe pretty but no meaning. (I think I use to want like a sexy fairy or something). Anyhow. Now that I am older I know I would want something to represent each of one of my kids. Nothing big, not in a place where I could show it off, something just for me. That being said, I have a husband that really doesn't care for tattoos at all. He doesn't want one and doesn't really like the way they look on women. (He is so much more conservative than myself) Also so many people are getting tattoos, almost like its a fad. You rarely see women without a single tattoo. Then there is the fact that I would probably want more than the ones for my kids. I love quotes, I love Bible verses, I love lyrics to good songs. I also love the watercolor style of tattoos. Color is my favorite. All that to say I will most likely never ever get one. But that doesn't mean I couldn't write about what I would want to get, right?
So for my daughter Abby I would want a small yellow sun. Since she was little I would sing "you are my sunshine" to her, and sometimes I even call her Sunshine.
For Josiah I am in a toss up between a lego piece or a light saber. He loves loves loves lego star wars video games, he also loves playing with legos. I love that he has such an imagination and loves these types of things.
For Elliana I could think of a few things I would want. A button for Lalaloopsy, a bow because she is loves all things girls, a fairy with a tutu because she loves dancing fairies. I could even do a lipstick because she always comes into the bathroom and wants put makeup on while I'm doing my makeup. She is just the ultimate little girly girl.
Of course I have one more and he isn't born yet, so I would either wait to get something for him I would get a heart. Because he will be my last little bundle of joy. His name, Benjamin means Son of my right hand. Which is a place of honor. To think that I am having one more little boy makes my heart melt. Josiah and I are best buddies. He adores me and loves me in such a different way than he does with his dad. Its almost difficult to imagine having another little guy to love in a similar way. He will be my youngest child, and when all my other children are grown up and off to college or married, he will still be at home by my side for a few more years. <3 p="">I would also want to get something in honor of my sister, Sherry. She is my mother figure. She is also my best friend. I am who I am today because of her love for me. Because she is the perfect example of strength, love and sacrifice. For her, I would get lilly's of the valley. This little flower is small but has such a strong and beautiful fragrant. This flower is durable and grows in the shade. The little white flowers are pure and delicate but its roots are deeply grounded causing this flower to spread across the ground, sharing its beauty. All of these things remind me of my sister.
Now for a quote. There are so many how does one narrow it down to just one quote?
“You who suffer because you love, love still more. To die of love, is to live by it.” 
― Victor Hugo, Les Misérables
"On the other side of fear lies freedom"
"Just keep being brave"
"You're never fully dressed without a smile" ~ Orphan Annie
"Why do we close our eyes when we pray? When we pray? When we cry? When we dream? Or when we kiss? Because we know that the most beautiful things in life are not seen, but felt by heart."

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So those are just a few. Maybe one day, I will get something but until then I will have to just live through pinterest and the the thoughts in my head.