Love7 - Pregnancy

My last day Pregnant.

I loved being pregnant. Of course you have your days when you are sick or things get rough, but overall I loved being pregnant. I love the feeling of having my baby move inside of my tummy. Watching my belly grow always amazed me! I may feel differently had my pregnancies been filled with vomit, nausea and complications, but I was very blessed.

One of my favorite memories from my first pregnancy was when I was about five months along and dh and I went to the state fair. I ate and ate and ate.... I never got full and everything tasted so heavenly. This was different for me because before being pregnant I simply ate to survive. With my second pregnancy, my greatest memories are of Abby taking my weekly belly photo's. She would use my camera and she would take my picture. I now can look back and remember how I grew with my child inside of me but also say that my daughter was the photographer.

Since having Josiah, my ppp has been irregular. Maybe because I am nursing or if I am stressed but the last to months I have not started on time. This past month was the most confusing for me. I was a whole week late, which is so different for me. I told dh and he just shrugged it off. Then about 2 minutes later af showed up....

This afternoon he told me that he was a little bit disappointed that I wasn't pregnant. When he said that it just touched my heart. I love knowing that my husband loves the idea of having more kids. He loves how I look when I am pregnant and that is a special quality to have :)

I often wonder if I would be ready to have another pregnancy so soon... I think about Josiah and he's only 7.5 months, he would be just over a year and a half If I was to have another baby. I don't know if I would be ready to two babies at the same time. Not only that but when you have a baby you have to devote so much time to that wee one. I don't want my son to feel slighted or cheated out of that one on one attention. But on the other hand, I know of siblings that are very close in age and they are very close at heart as well. I know it is all in God's timing anyhow... but I was just thinking about how it would be if I were. I know I would enjoy it and I know that God will provide the whatever it is I'd need, so I'm not worried about it.

I'm just thankful that either way my dh would be happy!